Sarah

While I generally try to make sure that the length of the notes allow them to be read in the image, itself…every once in awhile, the words overflow. I get that. It is why I can’t use twitter. 140 characters? Pssh. Please. And I would never limit someone pouring their hearts into sharing their story, so I have transcribed Sarah’s note below. – melodee

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My beautiful little girl – You will never know what you mean to me and daddy. You are what keeps me going in the morning. Your smile reminds me so much of your brother. I know he picked you for us and I know that every day he watches over you and protects you. He loves you just as much as daddy and I. I want you to know you have the world at your fingertips. You are so smart at 9 months and I know you will go sooo far and me and your dad will be there every step of the way, rooting you on! Never give up on your dreams and NEVER settle. You truly have blessed me. Thank you for letting me be your mom!

“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, forever and ever my baby you’ll be.”

Love, Mom

Dear God – I’ll never understand why you took my baby boy from me so soon. My heart is broken and my world was turned upside down. I miss my baby Kaden so badly every single day! I still love you and still believe, but it is so hard to accept that this is a part of your “plan”! What makes you think I am strong enough for this?? Thank you for Lexie, though. She makes my hard days a tad better!

My Loving Husband – Thank you for being my rock through this journey. I don’t know where I’d be without you. I want you to know that I don’t blame you for what happened and never will. You are an amazing father and husband. I look forward to continuing our life together! Thank you for everything. I love you forever and ever and a day, I PROMISE!!

My family – I can never thank you enough for your love and support. I know your hearts hurt too! I am so glad I can count on you all through thick and thin! We may be a tad crazy at times but at least we are crazy together! 🙂

My Bubba Man Kaden – I MISS YOU!! Thank you for blessing me with 9 months of absolute joy and love. Your spirit and memory will live on, in not only mine and daddy’s hearts, but in the hearts of the so many people that love you. Losing you was, by far, one of the worst things I have ever experienced, yet I have learned to live and love every day of my life to the fullest, to always be care fee and happy like you, because you never know when it could end. Thank you for teaching me how to be a mommy and for sending me your beautiful sister! I get up and keep going in the morning for the two of you. I want to make you proud of me! Please tell your Aunt Melissa and Uncle Steven that we love them and miss them, too! I can’t wait until the day that I can wrap my arms around you, kiss your adorable cheeks, and hear your giggle! Until that day, please watch over your dad and I, protect your sister, and send us all angel kisses. I love you more than life. *Bonk*

Love: Mommy

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Sarah’s story

Never in my life did I expect this to happen to me. I was a 22 year old mother of one precious little boy named Kaden. He was born on Febuary 26th 2009. My husband Andrew and I had been married 5 months, He is in the U.S. Navy and he left two months prior on his first deployment. Andrew wasn’t home for Kadens birth, he first got word at 4 in the morning when my water broke via a very frantic text message to his email. We kept in contact throughout the day, until Kaden was born at 4 p.m. Andrew got to see his son for the first time on a computer screen. We got to talk for a few minutes and I continued to send him pictures. Andrew didn’t return home until Kaden was almost 5 months old. They met for the first time on a pier in San Diego on the 2nd of July 2009. Kaden & Andrew where just in love, Andrew made Kaden a build a bear monkey with a recording of his voice in it and I played it every day for Kaden so when Andrew returned home Kaden knew his voice instantly. We spent the next few months getting into the groove of being a family. Andrew was commuting from Hemet to San Diego every day for work but when he came home he would give Kaden his bath and put him to bed almost every night. We were blessed with 5 amazing months as a family. On December 12th 2009 our lives where turned upside down when we tragically lost our precious baby boy. Kaden & Andrew where at home playing on the bed together, when Kaden pushed against the screen to an open 2nd story window and fell. Andrew tried to catch him but couldn’t react fast enough. Kaden passed away a few hours later. Our whole family and closest friends (25+) people where with us in the waiting room that night. Our lives have been forever changed, Andrew and I have gone through many challenges, and a lot of pain in the past year and a half but are somehow continuing to work through our loss together as neither of us could imagine going through this without the other. Two months after we lost our first child, our beautiful little boy we learned that I was pregnant again. Lexie Ann was born on October 5th 2010. She looks a lot like her brother and even acts like him sometimes too. We are blessed to have two beautiful children and even though we will always miss kaden, and will always feel a missing piece in our hearts every day we try to continue on for him. We keep kadens memory alive for his sister, we tell her about him every day and show her pictures of him too. We never expected to go through such a loss, we never even realized that something like this could happen, but it can. We both hope that through our loss we can continue to grow as a family and help others who have lost their children & educate parents on window safety, since we have learned it isn’t always a concern many people think of. Kaden is very big part of our lives, the 9 months he was here he taught us a lot. He will always live in the hearts of those who loved him, his memory will never be forgotten. As my favorite saying goes, “Though he walks with the angels in heaven, He lives forever in our hearts!”

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5 thoughts on “Sarah

  1. You know my heart breaks for you everytime I see you sad about Kaden. Lexie is such a lucky girl to have a loving supportive family and an angel watching out for her. I love this picture!

  2. Sarah, you have a gift. Thank you for sharing your very personal story of love, tragedy, strength and faith. Your are an inspiration.

  3. Sarah,
    This is a beautiful, heartfelt story of your love and strength. We all miss that precious little Kaden, but he will be in our hearts forever. Lexie is providing lots of love and special memories for you and Drew, and for all of us. Thank you for sharing your story, and for allowing us to share in the joys that are ahead with little Lexie. Love you

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